When I’m not writing this blog, I spend much of my time at my job at the local hospital. I’m a new-ish nurse, having graduated this past June. This past week, I was in one of my patient’s rooms, hanging IV fluid. This particular patient was a woman in her late 80’s who, until recently, had apparently lived healthily at home. Now, due to a rather acute attack, she lay disoriented, weak, and very sick in her hospital bed. Since my patient was asleep and wouldn’t have understood anyway had she been awake, I explained everything I was doing to the patient’s adult son and daughter. They asked questions, some of which I had ready answers for, some of which I explained I would research and then explain to the best of my ability, and some of which I had no idea about and stated I would call the doctor to find the answers. At this point the daughter remarked, “You’re very conscientious about your job, aren’t you? You seem like you’re going out of your way to take care of us.” Continue reading
When I started this blog, I determined two things: 1) I will not publish anything that isn’t from God and 2) I will publish something once a week. The past posts were definitely God-inspired. I waited until I felt I had something very specific from Him, and only then did I move. This time I’ve felt like I’m hearing spiritual cricket sounds.
After having my second son, I was thirty pounds heavier than my comfortable weight, and I couldn’t seem to do anything to get it off. I felt like I was stuck again where I’d been before God had set me free that day in 2011. Continue reading
I’m beginning to see progress. I know, exciting times, right? It’s barely perceptible, but I can tell my work clothes feel just the slightest bit looser than they did, say, four weeks ago. It’s nice to have something physical match what’s already happened mentally and spiritually. But this is the point where things have gotten tricky in the past, where I’ve thrown in the towel and given up hope. “What the heck?” you ask. Great question. Why would I give up when things are finally starting to get going? The answer lies in what you’re focusing on. Continue reading
I went out-of-town this past week. Hotels, friends, fun…and food, lots of food. I started off pretty well. No snacking. Only eating what I was hungry for then stopping. But let’s face it: that’s not much fun. By the end of the week, I was enjoying everything to its fullest while I was also at my fullest. Okay, bad pun. You’re right. But you get the picture.
I told myself, “Hey, this is no problem. I’ll just go right back to the easy road when I get home.” But it’s not that simple. LIke the drunk who has one drink “just for celebration” then afterwards finds himself drawn to the weight he’d been free of for so long, food has been on my mind. Which means The Question has also been on my mind. You know The Question I mean. The one you ask yourself when you’re so deeply in the middle of doing something that is astronomically outside your pay grade that you know you MUST be following God. The Question Peter asked himself while he was walking on the waves: Can I do this? Can I really do this? Or am I just kidding myself? Continue reading
It’s been a while since I last wrote. Life and my own stupidity got in the way. I’m back for one simple reason: God brought me here. When I wrote before, it was on my previous blog, which you can check out here if you like. But it ended abruptly and unceremoniously because I had tried to get ahead of God. I forced a Hagar, so to speak, instead of allowing for the Sarah. Continue reading